kuro SUFI no SEKKAI

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO SORRY!!

2011-04-30T09:02:00.002+08:00

Soooooo sorry for the looooonggg absent. Some of you wait, didntcha? tq :(
for supertonyet, melissa choo tze mei, johnathan, i miss u a lot!

My pregnancy isn't flowers and sunshine. Everyday is vommit and noshine. My labour time, that stupid nurse wrong-stitched me, tumpah darah some more. dunno if this is much, but it cost me 800ml of blood. My soooooo-patience mother-in-law took damn good care of me the whole time i'm complaining shit, huhu, tq mak.

Alhamdulillah, hasilnya, maya.

But, she's diagnosed with a heart condition. Maya ada jantung berlubang.

Just last week i met up with the doctor for the 2nd appointment. Lucky, he said, that the hole is getting smaller. God almighty, pls let this child suffer no more.

My status now : A mother with a lot of complaints. Prepare for a whole new episodes of complaints blog, compliments of sufikeramat.

Mama & Maya

2011-03-18T11:10:00.003+08:00

My daughter, Maya

Many thinks she's a he huhu. Rambut pacak pulak tu.

AN ANGEL

2011-02-08T12:45:00.002+08:00

Peace be upon y'all

I am now a mother to a wonderful 3 months old daughter.
My new life.

So sorry for the long absent.
Bloody problems keep on wanting my TLC.

Still feel happy tho, cause now i have seen the light, i know now why i choose that blasted Jihan.

Either way, i'll be active again soon.

Go get some love other place, y'all.

:D

I am pregnant hihi

2010-04-07T10:12:00.002+08:00

2 months.

Jihan is grinning ear to ear, every day.
And I have morning sickness every morning.
Even so, I am extremely happy.

Thank you God. You've been kind to me this year

SINGLE NO MORE

2010-03-22T11:51:00.003+08:00

I'm married.
12 December 2009

:D

Aku belum buat majlis lagi la Syida. Worry not, kau orang pertama yang aku jemput nanti.
Husband aku teringin nak jumpa kau. Boleh bagi no fon latest kau?

some live, some die

2009-11-20T15:07:00.002+08:00

very busy. next week, return home to johore.

:D

anak hantu punye hantu

2009-11-04T13:05:00.001+08:00

malam tadi aku mimpi hantu.
BANGANG PUNYE HANTU, KALAU NAK KACAU PUN, KACAU LA JIRAN AKU YANG CURI UNDERWEAR AKU DULU!!

nothing else matters

2009-11-04T12:57:00.004+08:00

i have realized now that it is not so much the achievement that makes us who we are. it is what we have left, once we stand all alone.

i forwarded this theory to my students, they all seems not to agree with me. weird bitches.

nonetheless, if it comes down to this belief, it is as if i am mocking myself with so much stupidity that in the end, it seems i am the clown that loses all.

:. (as in the 3 dots that represents the conclusion for the final answer in math) my worth now is in negative value, with the exception that the range of my ability must be put above zero, which will accumulate an answer to infinity. (x/0 = infinity)

hehehe

how to give advice to them bastard who never think that they are actually a stupid fucker?

2009-10-26T16:29:00.002+08:00

aku masih di sini

2009-10-26T16:20:00.002+08:00

i got engaged, june this year
i'll escape from penang on december this year
i'll start my new life at jb afterwards

and most important of all, i'm not dead yet.

2009-05-22T10:06:00.001+08:00

I WAIT FOR YOU THERE
LIKE A STONE
DAMMIT!

Song From The Unwanted Son

2009-05-12T11:53:00.003+08:00

Setelah lama aku mencari, akhirnya aku jumpa juga lagu yang banyak bawa kenangan. FTG yang bawa lagu ni, mula2 aku dengar sebutan english dia memang kelakar, tapi lama2 dengar sedap pulak.

Aku ade keset dia dulu, sebijik macam gambar kat atas tu, tapi Undertaker dah bakar. Hehe keset.... dengar macam barang antik aje. Aku cari kat kedai cd, tak pernah jumpa album ftg yang ni. Adelah sekali aku pi jalan2 kat BM, jumpa FTG vs Cromok, tapi takde lagu ni. Aku ingat adalah dekat 8 tahun cari lagu ni (tak sungguh2 sangat la)

Untuk sape2 yang juga mencari lagu yang sama berkurun lama, boleh ambil kat sini.

It feels so wrong
It feels so lone
Caught in the rain
I'm left in the drain

Canon Rock

2009-05-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

S : Abang, mainkan satu lagu.
J : Sayang nak lagu ape?

Malam itu aku dibuaikan dengan petikan gitar bertemakan bunyi Canon Rock, yang di arrange oleh Jerry Chang, a Taiwanese guitarist, based on Johan Pachelbel - Canon in D, piece of classical sound. Sound yang jadi internet sensation and one of the most downloaded tab since its debut . (tq wiki)

Ini yang bagi aku bertambah sayang kat Jihan.

Eheh..

Boleh dengar original, aku letak kat playlist aku di tempat no 2.

Dalam jiwa yang cedera

2009-05-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

Semalam Mira pergi ke KBJ dengan jebeng. Dia nak tukar piercing.

Nak dijadikan ceritera, malam tu jugak lah BJ punye kedai emas (Poh Kong) kena samun, siap bawak senjata api. Belum sempat Mira membayar harga, amoi yang sedang membelek telinga dia untuk masukkan ring terus sahaja mengemas, ambik duit dan lari dari tempat kejadian meninggalkan Mira termangu seorang.

"Oi, taknak duit ke? Aku belum bayar lagi ni!"
"Takpa... takpa.. wa mau lari dulu. Itu orang jahat belum kena tangkap lagi."

Huhuhuhuhu...

The big issue

2009-05-09T12:15:00.003+08:00

Mama F yang baru balik dari Bandung belikan aku telekung. Balik dari kelas dia, memang aku nangis.

Senang sungguh nak ambik hati aku. Suruh sahaja mak sape2 bermulut manis dengan aku. Masakkan aku ape2, tak sedap pun takpe. Bagi aku batu pun aku boleh ingat sampai mati.

Jihan telefon aku dan sungguh2 dia bercerita pasal big bang theory. Dia suka alam semesta, nak buat macam mana. Tetapi, Jihan, kalau kau tanya aku pasal Coppernicus pada pukul 1:17 pagi, bukankah boleh menyebabkan aku gila?

"Awak ajar Physics?"
"A'ah... spm level je la."
"Siapa yang keluarkan teori earth revolves around the sun?"
Wtf? As far as my mind can remember, that bastard's name is something+tikus...
"That chap who defies the Christian church doctrine?"
What the fucking fuck?
ok... ok... i can't remember... sorry...

Last night, i went to sleep with Ptolemy, Galileo, Lemaitre, that tikus chap and i dreamt of the second big bang. Just because Jihan said it's going to happen. Creepy!

Celaka!

2009-05-09T12:08:00.002+08:00

Wahai manusia2 yang bekerja di workshop yang suka bermulut manis.
Kalau pun tak boleh siapkan kereta aku, cubalah cakap terus terang.
Boleh aku marah sekali sahaja.

Kalau cakap sekejap siap minggu ni, sekejap siap minggu depan, sekejap siap bulan depan, sekejap siap tahun depan, bukankah boleh menyebabkan kau kena marah berkali-kali?

Nasib kau baik sebab aku bukan jenis orang leceh sangat, dan nasib kau baik kerana aku jenis orang tak banyak songeh. Nasib kau lagi baik sebab aku juga bukan jenis orang yang suka maki orang. In fact, aku tak pandai pun maki orang.

Tetapi kalau dah kurang sabar, dari tak pandai pun boleh jadi pandai.

Shit kan?

Nothing lasts forever

2009-05-01T19:22:00.004+08:00

"setelah engkau pergi
tiada apa yang ada di diri ini"

Malam ni Kak J kata nak sampai kat rumah aku, dengan baby dia. Dulu, semasa aku di ambang kegelapan dan kedegilan, dialah yang secara tak fizikalnya telah menampar aku supaya aku bangun balik. Mana lagi nak cari manusia yang boleh bersabar dengan kedegilan aku.

Lepas kelas aku pukul 10.00 malam ni dia kata dia nak sampai. Tak sabarnya nak tengok baby dia! Aku tahu dia ada krisis besar. Yang mampu aku tolong ialah cuba bagi dia sesenang hati yang mungkin. Takpun kalau aku tak mampu, aku buat bodo sudah. Aku bukan pandai pujuk orang sangat.

Aku rasa sungguh sayang kat Kak J yang banyak berkorban untuk aku. Aku harap dia boleh terima duit, sebab aku takde benda lain yang boleh dibagi.

Kenape ade orang kata aku kejam? Kejamkah aku? Aku kejam?
Rasa macam tak sangat.

Namun kau tak mengerti

2009-05-01T02:59:00.004+08:00

M said that i complained too much, and even put an equality with A. It's a total misery, dammit!!

However, since i am the one who asked for advice and I am the one who is being bloody stubborn all these time, i conciously have to swallow it. If my ego have to be put aside, that bastard M really do have a point. What else can i expect from the man that i once fell for. Nice isn't it, all the choices that we have made is the things that sets us apart from the next human. I felt so damn incapable, cowardice and most of all, i feel extremely stupid.

Okay, put that aside, i am pretty proud of myself, in influencing that lazy-i-wont-touch-a-single-book-after-spm brat. Mira now is officially reading Stephen King's Gunslinger : The Dark Tower I. Dig that!

Masih ku tak berdaya

2009-05-01T02:32:00.002+08:00

Patah kaki rasanya kereta takde. Workshop tu kata dalam 10 hari siap, kalau aku kira2 mungkin 10 hari tu (akan dikali dengan 2 atau 3), dan aku try untuk preparekan diri aku untuk tiada kereta dalam masa sebulan. Org insuran tu cakap diorang tak cover untuk replacement car aku pasal aku yang kena saman, shit!

Encik AB Marikan (bukan nama sebenar, aku tak pandai eja nama dia, iaitu kenalan M, iaitu yang tolong aku masa aku accident dulu) telefon aku tengah2 malam, dahlah tengah aku mamai, aku ingatkan Jihan call, aku dengan suara sesexy yang mungkin menyambut panggilan. Cheh, buang karen. Mesti dia tengah kembang hidung sekarang. Cheh!

Well, Wake offerkan aku kereta dia untuk aku pakai. Tetapi mengenangkan ego aku yang menggunung, aku tolak. B offerkan kereta kedua dia untuk aku pakai, aku tolak juga, bukan kerana ego, tapi tak mau termakan budi mahupun makan budu. 2 orang offer aku pakai motor, tapi aku takde lesen moto.

Cerita sebenar yang menyebabkan aku menaip di tengah malam ialah aku terharu mengenangkan ibu-ibu student aku yang sangat sporting. Mama Mei & John, well, baru baik demam, hantar aku balik. First time customer aku jadi driver aku. Mama Niveya come and fetch me after she knows about that accident. She strictly said no taxi for me. Ibu F dengan segera menghantar anaknya pergi bercuti ke Jakarta setelah aku accident. Ni lagi sporting tahap dewa, i won't even have to come for classes. Paid holidays lagi :D Nyauuu..

Next class aku nak bawak bunga lagi. Bagi kat mama2 sporting yang berjaya bagi aku terharu gila2.

Satu diriku untukmu

2009-04-27T21:30:00.006+08:00

Untuk Jihan,
Yang kini berada di Johor dengan selamatnya.
Aku tujukan lagu ini untukmu,
Hanya kerana kau suka lagu ini,
Dan dengan harapan,
Kau tak kisahkan pada masa lampau aku,
Yang tak seberapa indah untuk diceritakan,
Dan dengan harapan,
Kau terima aku seadanya.

WINGS-LUPAKANLAH
Kisah silam dah berlalu
Tinggal kau dan aku
Menagih kasih yang dijanjikan
Datanglah kau kepada ku
Berikan hatiku
Padamu kasih aku curahkan
Air yang mengalir
Tidak dapat aku hentikan
Selagi kau sangsi kan diriku
Yang menyayangi dirimu
Mengertilah sayang

Satu diriku untukmu
Usahlah kau ragu
Cahaya mu kasih dalam genggaman
Akan ku bina
Mahligai kota untuk kita
Disaksikan malam yang melambai
Akan aku buktikan pada mu
Tanda kebesaran
Pengorbanan mu kasih
Takkan aku siakan
Akan aku buktikan

Don't confuse me with that bitch

2009-04-27T21:12:00.003+08:00

Wake said he still loves me.
Wake said he can't forget me.
All i can do is left my jaw hang in its socket.

Bastard.

What happened to your supposed June wedding?
That bitch left you, isn't it?

Kak J said she'll personally axe u to death if you dare touch me again.

Shit happens

2009-04-27T20:58:00.004+08:00

Me, my car, an apek and his avanza.
Accident.
I bloody rammed the toyota ass.
M come flying from BJ Mosque.
To be a hero.
A nice man.
That i just realized.
I've almost didn't recognize it was you.
Thanks M.

To my 3744, please sleep peacefully in that workshop.
They're going to do plastic surgery for you.
Please be good and come back to me.

For all that i've blessed, and all that i've wronged

2009-04-19T03:07:00.002+08:00

I met up with M last night. I even have to call another substitute teacher for one of my favourite class. Which, in any case, is the one thing i've never ever done before. Bastard got nerve to mock my 40dc temperature, it really is so fuckin hellish goddammit!

Honestly, i'm just glad you remembered me. Being with you is an unforgettable experience. But i also know that my life won't be rose-coloured days if you're beside me. Heck, I'm lucky if its even the colour of a cowdung, which, i won't have to care anymore.

Godspeed, M. I hope i can see you until the day i die. Or maybe to suit the mood i am in, until the day you die.

Why does it feel not so sad anymore when i'm thinking about you dying? It even feel... errr.. somewhat... oh okay, that dude died...

Am i moving forward? Transcended? Or am i still lying to myself?

Heal the emptiness

2009-04-19T01:05:00.002+08:00

Yeah right!

When i have to fuckin wake up at 3:00 fuckin morning just to study 'normalization' and UML shits, just because i really hate it until i forgot how to do it and just because there's a fuckin database class tomorrow.

The class that i, unconciously, declared the third in my hatelist.

And after a 15 minutes of reading, i went to blogger to type this to curse my stupidity because it was so fucking simple and i am such a dimwit loser to forget it.

Skull & Bones

2009-04-17T02:24:00.002+08:00

GWb is dumb. Check this.

Will Ferrell is so fucking funny.
"I thought threesome is 3 people plus yourself"

Watch it, think/or don't think about it, and laugh.

And if you'd like, you can do research in his other shows, and research some of the quotes they used. It's actually real quotes from the nimwit himself.

It's just felt right writing this. Huhu.

Reaching for the stars, we blind the skies

2009-04-17T01:14:00.005+08:00

Aku rasa sungguh terharu, dengan Datin N dan Dato' A.

Atas sebab2 tertentu, aku tak dapat hadir beberapa kelas anak dia. Dalam kepayahan aku untuk membuat budget bulanan yang aku tahu mungkin tidak sebanyak bulan lepas, aku pun berfikir untuk meng'cut' sesetengah budget termasuk meng'offer'kan hadiah untuk Jihan.

Sebulan selepas itu, dengan attendance paling buruk dalam sejarah hidup aku, yang kebanyakannya bukanlah disebabkan oleh aku, aku datang dalam keadaan tidak berapa sedarkan diri. takde mood beb!

F telah meletakkan satu sampul surat yang sangat tebal di atas meja.
"It's your fee, Ms Sufi".
"Mkay.." No mood beb. I was thinking, damn.. did they put a 10 dollar note inside?? So damn thick.

Bila aku balik, aku mengira 80 keping 50 ringgit. Mkay.. so they really pay me full.. DAMMIT!! yang aku takde mood tak tentu pasal tu apesal??? setelah aku dapat 4k, aku bagitau mira..
"Beb, kau nak makan ape hari ni, cakap aje, aku belanja gila2 punya!"
"Kak Sufi, aku diet laaa... poyo la kau ni... janganlah goyahkan iman aku"
"Mkay..."

Aku rasa sungguh terharu. Keluarga F, dahlah baik, berhemah tinggi, bersopan santun, merendah diri. Aku doakan keluarga dia hidup bahagia, murah rezeki sampai bila2. Aku nak pegi kedai bunga, tempah water lily, nak bagi kat mak dia. Aku tak boleh pikir hadiah lain nak bagi.. maklum sahajalah, hadiah untuk F dari bapanya ialah sebijik Merz, adik dia, F, juga mendapat sebijik Merz. Mama dia, walaupun sudah ade sebijik BM convertible, dapat jugak sebiji Nissan Murano untuk tahun lepas. Abang dia punya kereta, BM ke Merz, 2 seaters. Jakun gila aku, dahlah aku kena park sebelah kereta dia. Rasa macam nak kidnap aje kereta dia!
Dammit! Bilalah ade orang nak bagi aku hadiah kereta percuma????

Ass-ass-in

2009-04-17T01:04:00.003+08:00

As the killer walked, he imagined his ancestors smiling down on him. Today he was fighting their battle, he was fighting the same enemy they had fought for ages, as far back as the 11th century…when the enemy's crusading armies had first pillaged his land, raping and killing his people, declaring them unclean, defiling their temples and Gods.

His ancestors had formed a small but deadly army to defend themselves. The army became famous across the land as protectors-skilled executioners who wandered the countryside slaughtering any of the enemy they could find. They were renown not only for their brutal killings, but also for celebrating their slayings by plunging themselves into drug-induced stupors. Their drug of choice was a potent intoxicant they called hashish.

As their notoriety spread, these lethal men became known by a single word-Hassassin-literally 'the followers of hashish'. The name Hassassin became synonymous with death in almost every language on earth. The word was still used today, even in modern English…but like the craft of killing, the word had evolved.

It was now pronounced assassin.

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An excerp from the beautiful 'Angels & Demons' by DB.
Assassin - the only word in english that i know that have two ass-es in it. s'that cool or what? i didn't know that. If that bastard lie, i'll assasinate him!

the double-chinned author

2009-04-17T00:49:00.002+08:00

yayy.. it's dan brown again.
since i've heard that 'angels and demons' are going to be orchested into movies, i was so moved that i read the book again.

what's so good about being a forgetful being is, when i forgot about the plot or story sequence, in a movie, manga, comic or favourite book, i felt the adrenaline exactly like when i experienced it the first time. it's awesome!

I've never done any 'cut & paste' plot, but here it is, i took it from danbrown.com. Enjoy..

"When world-renowned Harvard symbologist Robert Langdon is summoned to a Swiss research facility to analyze a mysterious symbol -- seared into the chest of a murdered physicist -- he discovers evidence of the unimaginable: the resurgence of an ancient secret brotherhood known as the Illuminati... the most powerful underground organization ever to walk the earth.The Illuminati has surfaced from the shadows to carry out the final phase of its legendary vendetta against its most hated enemy... the Catholic Church.Langdon's worst fears are confirmed on the eve of the Vatican's holy conclave, when a messenger of the Illuminati announces he has hidden an unstoppable time bomb at the very heart of Vatican City. With the countdown under way, Langdon jets to Rome to join forces with Vittoria Vetra, a beautiful and mysterious Italian scientist, to assist the Vatican in a desperate bid for survival.Embarking on a frantic hunt through sealed crypts, dangerous catacombs, deserted cathedrals, and even to the heart of the most secretive vault on earth, Langdon and Vetra follow a 400-year old trail of ancient symbols that snakes across Rome toward the long-forgotten Illuminati lair... a secret location that contains the only hope for Vatican salvation. An explosive international thriller, ANGELS & DEMONS careens from enlightening epiphanies to dark truths as the battle between science and religion turns to war..."

Am I allowed to publish this?

2009-04-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

!ressik doog ydoolb a si nahij

hehehe

One of these days, i'm going to cut you into little pieces!

2009-04-16T20:02:00.004+08:00

He wore bloody mickey mouse shirt.
And a fucking almost-fluoroscent yellow shirt to work.
And he have damn pink shirt, for god sake!

There's this one GAY uncle who is after him. No kidding!

He almost got married with an MJ anak satu.
He has a near-death experience, well, dengue case.

But he smiles like Jack Black. Well, Nacho to be exact, huhu.
And he can play guitar and drum. Although not perfect. And he's into organ these days. Well, he wish.

And he listens to whatever songs i like. Even though when i counted back, it's only 50%, but that's a record! totally awesome, good taste!

And he's so damn cute when he tries to look serious. And that guy is so damn tall i barely on par with his upper chest even with my heels on. And what's more, he's so bloody humble i started to think that he's not real.

He is not exactly my dream guy. But he's perfect for my battered soul.

And most importantly, he doesn't care if i am a penniless, arrogant, selfish bitch.

Love Struck?

2009-04-16T18:11:00.003+08:00

Am i?
If so, i won't mind.
Since M also has found his second (not to say that i approve of her so much) wife.
And Wake also has found his second disasterous, pretentious bitch.
Applause to you both.

And I have found a wonderful guy i have chose to spend the rest of my life with. Life is fair, anyway.

Say you wanna start something new

2009-04-16T17:59:00.003+08:00

I have high fever.
40 degree celcius.
for almost 3 days now.

The doctor gave me a hell lot of medicine.
And tomorrow i have to take a blood test, just to see if i got any fuckin dengue or cikunya or whatnot.

And Jihan is extremely freaked out. Being a dengue victim himself. That guy is so sweet. Checkin up on me every odd hour. I shouldn't scared him so much, but i enjoyed it.

Everytime he called, i tried my best to sound as sick as possible.. huhuuhu the attention is heavenly awesome.

Jihan, don't blame me dear.

:D

MASIH

2009-04-14T15:54:00.002+08:00

Lagu yang kini mendapat nombor satu di playlist aku. Dan juga nombor satu di jiwa aku.

Lagu 'Masih' dari kumpulan Flop Poppy, yang dipopularkan kembali oleh Jihan selaku guitarist peribadi aku sekarang. Ia bukanlah lagu rock makan budak yang selalunya menjadi kegilaan aku, tetapi hanyalah sekadar lagu jiwang biasa yang mempunyai lirik membunuh.

Bila Jihan nyanyi sambil main gitar yang sedikit sumbang, aku cair.

MASIH KU TAK BERDAYA
MELUPAKANMU
DI HATIKU BERKATA
APAKAH SEBENARNYA CINTA
DI HATI INI
HANYA MAINAN SEMATA

NAMUN KAU TAK MENGERTI
APA SEBENARNYA YANG TELAH TERJADI
DI DIRI INI
KAU YANG MASIH DI HATI
TIDAK TERDAYA UNTUK MENGUNDUR DIRI
DARIMU

SETELAH ENGKAU PERGI
TIADA APA YANG ADA DI DIRI INI
KU HARAPKAN KAU BERUBAH HATI
SEMOGA KAU KAN KEMBALI
DI DIRI INI

MASIH

2009-04-14T14:49:00.007+08:00

Semalam aku balik Johor. Menghabiskan masa dengan Jihan. Terima kasih Jihan, kau sanggup potong rambut kau yang panjang tu semata2 untuk mengadap Undertaker. Aku boleh salute kau.

Dalam banyak2 orang yang propose kat aku, dialah yang paling teruk sekali. Beberapa bulan lepas, dia bagi msg waktu petang. "I want your answer tonight". Malam tu entah berape jam dia main gitar untuk bagi aku tidur.
Afterwards, i said yes.

Shit kan? Aku pun tak sangka. Aku rasa aku suka orang dominate aku. Tak ramai orang boleh bagi aku tunduk. Dan tak ramai orang sebenarnya tahu aku suka orang berkeras dengan aku. Mungkin sebab pengaruh Undertaker yang mengamalkan pemerintahan kuku besi sejak dari dulu lagi.

Aku jumpa Jihan tahun 2004, masa aku di ambang kegemilangan. Kegemilangan tuuuu.. huhuhu.. and i think i've hurt him big time. Aku bagitau dia, aku nak kawan dengan seribu orang dulu, lepas tu baru aku terima dia. Selepas itu aku terus blah ke KL, mencari entah ape2 yang boleh bagi hati aku puas. Selepas itu, aku blah pulak pegi Penang. Tanpa memikirkan yang mungkin ade manusia yang terluka. Shyyeeetttt... teruknya aku dulu!!!!!!!!!!

Tahun ni aku jumpa dia balik, seperti biasa, bukan susah nak ambil hati aku, bagi sikit lagu rock, mainkan gitar sikit sebanyak sumbang pun takpe, bagi sikit komik atau bincang pasal anime, mengaku pandai masak walaupun hanyak tipu sahaja, bagi sikit kata2 durjana yang agak manis, aku ok.

Malam tadi Jihan dgn kakaknya datang, itu merisik ke? aku rasa macam orang datang jumpa kawan2 aje. Kak As nampak macam sporting, yang nak tergelaknya mamat rock tu nampak malu gila.

Undertaker seperti biasa buat2 cool, abg long aku yang serupa anak jin tak bertoncet tu pun dah prepare nak buli Jihan. Aku harap2 lah dia tak pengsan tekejut tengok family aku. Aku bukan datang dari keluarga yang normal. Dan aku pun tak pernah declare yang aku ni normal. Kalau dia boleh terima, tu pun dah cukup bagus untuk aku.

Bulan 6 tahun ni aku bertunang. Mungkin ikat setahun, kalau Undertaker tak ubah fikiran. Maknanya, tahun depan aku kahwin. (Ketakutan).

Nasihat yang aku nak bagi kat diri aku, kalau aku dah sayang sesuatu benda, atau seseorang, aku susah nak lepaskan. Aku akan cuba ubah. Kalaulah declare 'sayang' yang telah dideclarekan oleh Jihan kat aku bertahan sampai aku mati, alangkah beruntungnya aku. Tapi kalau declare itu hanya bertahan tak sampai mana, aku pun terima sahaja. Selama mana yang dia nak sayang kat aku, aku akan treasure semana aku mampu. Kalau sampai masa dia dah tak mahu, aku janji aku terima tak banyak soal.

Shit kan cara aku berfikir?

2009-04-10T18:39:00.001+08:00

Where are u sufi?

2009-04-10T14:38:00.003+08:00

I'm going where the wind is blowing.

Thank u Nacho!

This is sufi, before she's going Afro.

The GRUDGE

2009-03-22T17:51:00.004+08:00

the case : hair bang was cut too short

the issue : i have to fuckin go to classes, eventho i am a rockstar, still feel embarrassed. I got freaking wide forehead, bitchies!

the solution : i wear fugly hat

the impact : i look like one of those apek jual jeruk tepi jalan, bloody shheeeeyyyt! even worse, they compare me with abu bakar elah, how fucked up is that?! damn bastards don't know what delicacy meant.

i'm fuckin hurt here. Cut me some slack. And more importantly, don't secretly cut my hair when i fuckin sleepin!

So what? I am a rock star

2009-03-21T15:55:00.002+08:00

Malam tadi aku gila. Aku potong rambut aku sendiri. Mira menjadi penyebab utama. Seperti biasa, aku kena salahkan orang lain atas kedegilan aku sendiri. Rambut aku yang memang menyerupai mak lampir, kini hampir sahaja menjadi tapir.

Kesedihan.

Sufi's Weapon Series II : Alucard's Jackall & Ceras's Halconnen

2009-03-21T15:43:00.000+08:00

So sorry, Hellsing is too awesome, so their weapons are listed twice in my weapon's series. Again, the vidz is from Hellsing TV series, watch it. You'll find heaven.

I know it's hard to keep an open heart. When even friends seems out to harm you.

2009-03-21T14:45:00.001+08:00

M, how are u? really.

Last Ammunition

2009-03-13T14:50:00.002+08:00

Ok, I like Melissa & John's class. They're cheeky brats, but i like them.

Just the other night, we are talking about god(s).

Melissa : Teacher, why you can't take liquor?
John : Teacher will get 'berdosa' you know.
Sufi : *sigh* I can't take it because it is considered one of the 12 big sins in my religion. You've been asking this since last week, drop it already.
Melissa : Teacher, what is 'berdosa'?
Sufi : *sigh* It means sin, you'll be punished for that by god.
Melissa : So... if you're sinned, what will you do?
Sufi : *sigh for the umpteenth time* We ask forgiveness.
Melissa : How?
Sufi : By praying of course.
Melissa : Pray how?
Sufi : We have a specific praying for repenting. It's not the same as our daily 5 times routine praying perday.
John : (imitating Muslim praying) hahaha..
Sufi : *gritted teeth* John, I think it will be a wise practise for you not to make fun of other's religion. *I smacked that bastard's head*
Melissa : What will happen if you didn't ask forgiveness?
Sufi : *sigh again* You have to face God's wrath. You might even go to hell. You won't like it in there. Do you believe in heaven and hell Melissa?
Melissa : Yup. But we also believe in reincarnation.
Sufi : I don't believe that shit. So, if you do bad things, shouldn't you ask forgiveness from your god?
Melissa : We do.
Sufi : How?
Melissa : There (She pointed to their small shrine place)
Sufi : So, are you a Buddhist?
Melissa : Not quite.
Sufi : I don't understand.
Melissa : We pray to Buddha, and also another.
Sufi : So, how many gods do you have?
Melissa : A lot, but we only pray to two.
Sufi : I see... So.... if you want to ask forgiveness, from whom should you ask forgiveness from?
Melissa : depends.
Sufi : Huh? I don't understand.
Melissa : errr...
Sufi : Never mind that. (after a few mins). Melissa, why do you have lots of gods? Can't you pray to only one? Aren't they powerful enough?
Melissa : Err.. actually, teacher... they're small gods. And they're taking command from one big god.
Sufi : *First time i heard this* ok... So, why didn't you just pray to this one big god?
Melissa : Err.. We don't know who it is.
Sufi : *Fuck, i'm speechless*

Melissa : Teacher, can i ask you one more question?
Sufi : Shoot beb! I ain't fuckin care anymore.
Melissa : Why didn't you cover your hair like the other Muslim female?
Sufi : *shit* Damn fuckin brats!

Sufi's Weapon Series I : Alucard's Jackal & Casull

2009-03-13T11:41:00.004+08:00

Wait until night time. Press Play. Press Pause. Let it load. Switch off all the lights. Close all windows and doors. Turn on volume to the max. Finish loading. Press Play.

This is Alucard's of Hellsing. It's about time people do something with his weapon of choice. Awesome kan? Wait till you see Ceras's weapon, Halconnen. You can cry for months.

This vid is not one that i own. Thanks Lord Takin and DeathStars.

It's raining tonight

2009-03-12T13:48:00.006+08:00

My life's new name = escapism.

I'm not ashamed to admit it since 'tis the truth.

Those flowing vision have stained me with rampant lies and let my dreams escape.

If it's a dream that can't be reached, well, then, let's fling it away.

I gave up on you, M. Please be happy no matter what. Eventhough you really are a hopeless bastard, I'll support you anyway.

I'm going where the wind is blowing

2009-03-12T12:50:00.003+08:00

I am damn happy like this. I've indulge myslef with things i like. And the world is not not a bit matter to me anymore. If i die, the earth is still in its orbit around the sun.

If only i can settle all the problem, and live quietly until i disappear.

That would be perfect.

Except, somebody has already promised me a 2 storeys house with a library to fit all my books and anime, and a jamming studio, just in case if i wanted to hear him play guitar. Nice eh?

So, have mercy God. Please let me live some more years so that i know what fuck really means. So i still can indulge myself more in books, animes, and music until You take me back, to punish or to reward this slave.

Drastic game again. Bondage is back.

2009-03-11T23:29:00.006+08:00

Aku dah takde keje lain.

Tadi baru sahaja aku tengok kembali episod2 nana. season 2 bile nak keluar? i refuse to read the manga iaitu sama sahaja dengan spoiler.

Nana is an amazing anime & Anna is the queen of rock. They are frighteningly suited.

Blind game again

2009-03-11T19:37:00.002+08:00

Blind Game Again.
Rage Beat.
Sleepless Beauty.

Aku tak sangka aku boleh dengar ketiga2 lagu di atas lebih dari 5 kali berturut-turut. Muzik dia langsung menyimpang dari minat asal aku, tapi oleh sebab pengaruh anime dia, aku rasa boleh layan. Larung.

Gravitation is cool if not for some of the lame drawing. Kinya Kotani sounds so refreshingly gay. It's perfect, since Gravitation is a shounen-ai anime. Make it bishounen, with deadly eyes. Heheh. The seme is a murderer anyway. Hehe.

Selain dari Kinya, aku check Mass Misiles, vocalist dia macam Bruce Lee. Kelakar. Setiap video dia mesti ada scene dia menjerit depan muka orang. Trademark? Ke bagi nasihat? Ke geram? Ke sebagai ganti dia tak boleh bitchslap nerd tu?

Ape aku buat ni? Takde keje sangat...

You are not me

2009-03-11T14:27:00.001+08:00

Consider this the greatest advice you'll ever receive, Mira.

Death

2009-03-11T13:30:00.004+08:00

Kematian yang paling memberi kesan dalam hidup aku:

1. Masa arwah mak aku meninggal, aku even curse diri aku sendiri. Aku tak lalu makan berminggu-minggu. Penyesalan yang tak terhingga menapak diri aku. Kesannya, aku terlalu bencikan Undertaker. 3 hari selepas arwah mak meninggal, aku menduduki peperiksaan physics matric, yang paling aku gemari. Aku nak ambik engineering, tapi kertas physic aku hanya dipenuhi dengan rubbish, aku tak boleh berfikir straight. Jadi akhirnya aku dapat pilihan kedua aku, sc comp. Shit kan?

2. Masa Grave (Brandon) & Harry mati. Cerita gungrave adalah cerita terulung kalau nak bagi aku nangis. Sebak paling mencanak hati. Setiap kali aku tengok, aku mesti nangis walaupun aku dah tahu jalan cerita by heart. First time aku regard yakuza sebagai hero aku.

3. Masa Asuma-sensei mati. Aku rasa sebak yang tak terhingga. Aku rasa kalaulah aku jadi Shikamaru masa tu, aku akan pijak2 kepala Hidan sampai pecah.

4. Masa L mati. Aku tak boleh terima keadaan itu. Masa L tutup mata, aku rasa sebak yang mendalam. L tak patut mati masa tu. It's just stupid!

5. Masa Haku & Zabuza mati. Pilu beb. They can be great yaoi pair. Wuwuwu.

6. Masa aku terima berita Leman meninggal. Accident sampai pecah kepala. Masa tu aku ingat kami baru lepas pmr. Masa tu baru aku perasan betapa fragilenya hidup manusia. Selepas spm, lebih kurang 3 orang kawan2 aku meninggal. Semua accident. Shit! Tapi qada' dan qadar dah macam tu. Aku ni pun penghujungnya belum tau lagi.

7. Masa aku mati nanti. Takut.

Kuroi Namida = Black Tears

2009-03-11T12:59:00.005+08:00

Mode for today : Mellow.

Action : Add up some mellow sounds in my playlist.

Result : Animes's themes that i like (from Nana (Black Stones), Death Note, Vampire Knight) were added. Plus one french song 'sous une plui d'etoiles' that i got from one of the yaoi's amv. Tis not the first time i added anime's theme, before this are hellsing & gunxsword. Bloody schweeet! (confession - aku tau aku susah nak suka suara female vocalist, tapi, lain halnya kalau aku dengar anna tsuchiya yang selaku pelaris suara Nana Black Stones. Suara dia sexy, tak caya pi dengar)

Result 2 : I have also digged up old favourites like the ever awesome r.e.m - losing my religion. that is so nostalgic. and one piece from bush - swallowed. nice voice. and the cute weezer-holiday. it sounds so cute. (confession - aku pernah tergila2kan sound dari weezer, greenday, offspring... hinggalah suatu hari aku tengok slash main gitar kat tv, aku rasa semacam.)

Side effect : Happy.

confession #7

2009-03-10T11:04:00.004+08:00

She is Hinata. Her love interest is that freakin named-after-a-food Uzumaki boy.

I have made terribly big mistake when i accidently read a spoiler saying they're going to make her die. Arrhhhh.. tak boleh terima!

Confession no #7 :

I FUCKIN CRY REAL TEARS WHEN ASUMA SENSEI DIED. FOR REAL!
AND I KNOW I'LL FUCKIN CRY SOME MORE REAL TEARS WHEN THIS HOT BABE DIED.

Leave me be... Just leave me alone!

2009-03-10T09:50:00.004+08:00

Last night, i felt so miserable. Don't know why i got so pissed off at M, he's being the original bastard and act like he likes it so much. M, go to the kitchen and stab yourself, faggot!

So, i went to one of my favourite class, and two of my favourite students. (People, don't believe shits like teacher won't practice favouritism, they do. And all other professional worker also.)

Melissa immediately notice my slump shoulder, my bleary eyes, and my unenergetic response. I didn't even flinch when they declare they didn't finish my homework. After an hour of negativeness, Melissa whisper to John, she's determined to make me come back to the real world.

John went to the kitchen, and brought a bottle of a fucking red wine, y'all! The fuck is that? It's a a thick bloody red and looks so tempting. I like that colour.

"It's non alcoholic, Ms Sufi. Here, you can try it. It's good. You can be cheerful again."

The fuck are you saying? I don't know shit about liquour, but that sounds so damn suspicious. It's smelled so damn sour and i thought it shoulda taste fuck bitter.

"No thanks. I'm good here."

Melissa still insist, and i politely decline. She instruct John to get some more bottle. Don't know what is that, but they declare it is 'less strong'. Huh? What do you mean?

He opened up a new bottle, mixed it with the red wine, and they both gulp it in front of me. Cheeks got reddened and i got mad.

"You fuckin chibis! If you want to make me feel better, offer me something else. I'm a goddamn money-whore. You can offer me money. Yeah, that will make me feel good."

Isn't it easy to please me?

confession #6

2009-03-10T09:20:00.002+08:00

'Tis been such a long time since my last confession. Yup, Sufi's confession Series (SCS) is still on, yo!

Sufi's confession #6 :
The only proper dish that i might prepare for my in-law-to-be is 'gulai ikan sembilang'. I have high confident in that dish.

I'm not so big in cooking. All the meal that i've ever cooked were either too lame for me, or it's too lame for others. In short, 'tis too lame.

I have problem matching dishes to make it a complete set for lunch or dinner, since my taste is also quite lame.

Once, i only eat hot plain white rice with fresh fried fish, just that, and i declare it heaven.
I don't like exaggeration, hence, i'm fine with only one dish per meal. It's not because i'm lazy or what, but the taste of lots of 'taste' will make my tastebud 'tasteless'.

I wanted to be like lots of my girlfriends, who think that they will die if they didn't touch that fuckin stove for one day. And since i'm dead determine, i think i'll start with combining 3 dishes today. Can chicken curry, stir fried vege and miso soup go together?

I wonder.

(Hahaha, miso soup y'all! I like miso soup! I can drink 3 bowls of it and ask for another!)

The world as seen by losers

2009-03-10T09:05:00.004+08:00

It is not that beautiful!
It is not that fun!
It is miserable!
And it is sure not that fair!

That's why we need bishies, refreshing yaoi doujin, to make the world beautiful.
That's why we need action, kick ass animes like one piece, bleach, naruto, gungrave, hellsing, to make the world fun.
That's why we need rock fuckin roll music, with a splash of metal, to make the world less miserable.
That's why we need heroes, like luffy, zero, that fuck zoro, wunan, dewa parang, to make the world 'safe', and fair for everybody.

How did i know this?
Because people, I'm one of those shit loser!

The reason

2009-03-10T08:49:00.003+08:00

My dear blooody student ask for 10 days holiday. the reason, as told by her dear mother :
"Sorry Sufi, she has underwent some minor surgery, and now her body is so weak, that she has some major 'gangguan halus'."

What the fuckin fuck?!!!!

So, now i kindof got a paid holiday too. It's just that i'm waiting for 'em to pay my fee, aarrhhh they shoulda pay me first before going on that supposed holiday, which i think, sebenarnya pegi berubat kot... aarrhh how about my fee?

Nevertheless, since that student is also dear to me, i am a ok with that. I hope she gets well soon. Gambare Fatin!

I'M SOOO SUCK AT DOIN BUSINESS!
SHIT KAN?

How i wish i can hear somebody said this to me

2009-03-10T00:09:00.002+08:00

“Give back my pants, Sufi. This is no fun! I’m the one running around house, butt-fucking naked- my dick all swinging in the air!”

Wuwuwuwuwuwuwu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My middle finger is itchin, to stand up

2009-03-09T23:50:00.003+08:00

Who the hell called me at five fuckin thirty in the morning?

Didn't you know that i have to strained my eyeballs to finish that fuck marking garbage? Please let me have some peace. I've only been to bed for less than schweet 10 mins, ho!

Owh... you have it easy sufi! You didn't know what i've just gone through. I wish i can become a teacher like you. So easy.

SHUT THE FUCK UP, BEYTCHH!

I'm a grown up teacher, with a grown up teacher problems.

As far as i'm concerned, you just fuckin find me when you're in trouble, but when you have it easy, you just fuckin ignore me bitch!

Now, don't mouth pansy complaints when i do the same, ok honey?

It's not distortion that i want, and it's not anarchy either

2009-03-09T23:13:00.003+08:00

I met this 30+ y.o dude in a lift.

That bastard asked me whether i have class or not today.

Fuck you! Don't talk to me! I don't fuckin know you, faggot! How did you know that i was supposed to have class today?

"Huh??"

Bastard repeated his question, and mentioned some name, Syamsuri something.

Bloody hell! Who the fuck is Syamsuri, your faggot friend?

"Huh?? Awak nak ape?"

He explained in details who he is, and that faggot Syamsuri. DDDuhhhh... Don't friggin scare me like that. I have high blood pressure and probable-cardiac-arrest situation. We're 'almost' alone in that fucked up lift.

Yea, i know that fag Syamsuri, but I didn't know that is his full name, I called him Bob, since like forever. F'course, how intelligent i am, i won't know that it is him.. How awkward can i be.

And, bastard seems to be the guy who have helped me when my car broke down, just the other day.

Should i feel guilty?

Karangan melampau

2009-03-09T22:55:00.002+08:00

Aku tak sangka adik aku ialah presiden persatuan BM kat sekolah dia. Aku tau dia pandai, tetapi kalau nak membayangkan dia mengepalai sesuatu persatuan tu, agak sukar nak digambarkan.

Setelah aku meminta pengesahan dan kepastian daripadanya, nyatalah sangkaan aku tak meleset. Pencalonannya dibuat oleh talibarut Mira sendiri, yang dia pun kurang kenal. Dia kata dia glamour satu sekolah, sebab tu banyak talibarutnya yang dipaksa mengundi.

Antara sifat2 kepimpinan yang dapat ditonjolkan olehnya ialah, dia selalu tak datang aktiviti, malah menyuruh2 orang2 bawahannya sahaja membuat kerja. Dia juga pernah menyuruh ahli2 persatuan untuk tidur sahaja untuk aktiviti penting, semasa guru penasihat gagal menampakkan diri. Ini menyebabkan pengaruhnya semakin meluas kerana murid2 sekolahnya yang pemalas lagi poyo memang suka mengikut ketua yang lagi malas dan lagi poyo, macam mira.

sekian.

Black is not EMO, yo!

2009-03-08T19:29:00.002+08:00

Is alive.
But tired.
Of disrespectful bastards!

I'm still waiting for that sagakure to post her Cradle of Blood no 14. (Warnings: AU. slavery, prostitution, mature themes and lemons from time to time.) Featuring VK's ZeroxKana Wuwuwuwuwuwuwu......... So emo yo! With 'dislocated hips' ... perkhhh dig that!

Tak sangka aku boleh tertunggu2 sambungan fanfic tu. Aku agak berkenan cara dia tulis. Bertepatan dengan citarasa aku sebagai peminat Zero. Yang penting involve blood.

Aku juga meminati fanfic ZoroSanji.

Tak kisahlah orang nak cakap ape. Yang penting aku happy.

errr.. ada orang ingat aku berumur 15 tahun, bukan kerana rupe, tapi perangai aku yang macam katun. Sadistical bastards.

Because i'm frowning all the time

2009-03-06T17:36:00.003+08:00

Jihan! call me and play guitar some more!

I like it!

Masa aku balik kampung 2 hari lepas aku tak sempat jumpa kau. Tu lah, kau tu busy memanjang. Abang long aku pun nak jumpa kau. Tak tau lah dia nak buat ape.

Aku bagitau kau memang teruk, telan ganja berguni-guni.

Hehe.

I belong here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-06T10:26:00.002+08:00

I am Sufi Keramat, 20+ (still) years old, a teacher.

Once again i copulated before leaving for work. That yaoi collection is getting even bigger.

I failed as a teacher.... Dammit! Forget teacher! I failed as a human being!

Her ship is fast sinking....... That Sufi Keramat, 20+ (still) years old, a teacher.

Wicked!

Okane Ga Nai

2009-03-06T09:46:00.003+08:00

I have learned that the best way to lose a friend is to lend them money.

I also learned that the best way to lose a friend is to borrow money from them.

Hence, I have learned that the best way to live is to find my own goddamn money.

My most precious 15 minutes

2009-03-05T10:18:00.003+08:00

Undertaker is getting old.
Why the fuck am i getting bitchy still?

I have decided to try to make it up for lost time.
I have spoken, at least 20 long lines with hime.
I asked him advice about the weird dreams that i always have.
and it worked!

He smiles like crazy.
I didn't ever think once, in my fucked up life, that i got to see him smile at me.

He explained things that i know he knew so well, eventho i already know the answer to my own goddamn question, it stillf feel refreshing hearing Undertaker explain it to me, in details. That old fart even have to strain and stop to take few breaths just to go on, continuing his explanation.

At that point of time, I think whatever Undertaker ask me to do, i'll do it. Whatever things that he wants, i'll buy it.

I wonder why such simple talk can move me to the point that i think i can leave Penang just for the sake of having that precious moment with Undertaker again.

Undertaker, just so you know, I have forgiven you, long time ago. I am now asking forgiveness from you instead, just because it takes me such a fuckin long time to realize it.

Memang memalukan

2009-03-02T09:50:00.002+08:00

Malam tadi memang memalukan. Kalau aku tahu jadinya macam ni, tak sanggup aku nak ikut nasihat si Zila tu. Aku dengan Mira telah kepaciran. Bila teringat balik memang rasa nak muntah!

Aarrrr Aaarr Arr AAhhhHHHO! Stupid!

Mlm tadi 'Abg Ros' telah mencabar kesabaran aku.
Kesabaran Mira juga telah dicabar oleh 'Abang Ros'.
Nak dipendekkan ceritera, Abang Ros kini yang bermuka pecah rumah itu telah ditukar nama kepada Serangga Perosak.

Zila : Kak Sufi, kite tak tahu pulak jadi macam tu, selalunya... errr...errr..
Sufi : SHHUTT UP BEYYYTCCH!!!!!

Naruto & the gang are totally gay

2009-03-01T19:30:00.003+08:00

Check out the radio talk show (oh! naruto nippon).. fuckin hilarious
dammit! why did i only know about it just LUst night... ehehehe

Kakashi sensei! You got style!

Peeee... hihi!!!!

cebisan dialog sadis dengan mira poyo

2009-02-26T23:30:00.001+08:00

mira : perkh kak sufi, hari ni student aku dah mencabar kesabaran aku
sufi : (leka membaca komik)
mira : bagilah respond sikit oi.. kau dengar tak ape aku cakap oi..
sufi : kira.... kesabaran kau tercabar lah hari ni
mira : (nada bengang) kau cuma pasifkan ayat aku
sufi : itu kan satu respon jugak (kembali membaca komik)
mira : (ke tandas untuk mencari ketenangan jiwa)

Berpalinglah padaku di sini

2009-02-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

Dear Hazwan...

M is for Marlboro
It is not for Misai, yo!

That is such an insult!

Andai langkahmu kini terhenti

2009-02-26T21:28:00.003+08:00

I'm in trouble.
Car broke down big time.
Bob & Nurul helped a lot.
You both are angels.
(Actually, hazwan, his ex-UN father, and the gang also lend a hand.. )

What the heck am i doin now?
To get all the troubles behind my head..

I devour pendekar laut, up to book 542, the latest yo! (thank u fauzi)
I added up yaoi collection up to 20 Gb,
And deleted the low quality rmvb animes, replace'em with ori, bro!
and currently re-initiate the hyuugacest collection.

and my personal guitarist, jihan (tepi tambak laut) actually heals my broken heart. I didn't know that you posessed the ability to weave sweet words. That works for me in my time of need. How the hell did u know my ultimate weakness, which is that bloody undertaker. Your opinion is an eye opener. thank you jihan.

and i used to think that i am left with nobody.

how pathetic have i become to purposely ignore them (or their feelings) before.

komenasai... minna!

Jiwa Kacau

2009-02-21T22:48:00.003+08:00

Setiap kali ade kelas itu, jiwa aku akan kacau.

Dalam 20 orang students aku, 9 orang Chinese banyak tanya, 8 orang Chinese yang lain tengok aku semacam, seorang Indian yang pelik dan 2 orang Melayu yang pendiam.

Aku dahlah tak baca lagi module. Teknikal pulak tu. Kelas 3 jam. Ape aku nak kelentong ni...

Gila aku dalam kelas tu.

:(

Terguris Jiwa Dalam Sengsara

2009-02-20T00:46:00.003+08:00

Intro terhebat selepas intro Isabella
Persandingan Abadi, lagu penuh feeling dari Massa.
Perkkhh meleleh...

Nak bagi tambah feeling, bagi sejuk hati tengah panas, aku letak lagu Jitu - Terkunci dalam sengsara... (Don't judge me yet). Lagu rock purbakala yang boleh bagi hati aku sejuk.

Tadi baru aku surf juara lagu 1989, 90 dgn 91. Perkkhh rasa high semacam. Aku dengan Mira memang sama taste. tak ku sangka budak jebeng tu kaki karaoke jamban. Aku ingat dia minah dangdut hehe.

Aku teringin nak peluk Amy Search!

Kerana tulusmu

2009-02-19T00:14:00.004+08:00

Adik bongsu aku, Faiz, buat hal, sampai kena tangkap. Seperti yang sedia maklum, aku bukannya orang senang sangat, keluarga aku pun bukannya berada.

Aku tak kisah kalau kau tu beruk, masalahnya kau tu orang yang ade otak. Faiz, jadi orang tu janganlah suka sangat susahkan orang lain.

Setelah disoalselidik, dia cakap masalah dia satu aje. Aku takpe, kalau boleh aku hulurkan ape yang patut, aku hulurkan tak banyak bunyi. Aku boleh layan kepala dia, tapi kalau dia langgar syarat aku, dan dia pulak tak boleh layan kepala aku, aku balik kampung, aku berani janji aku akan patahkan kaki dia.

A tribute to hero

2009-02-18T16:39:00.004+08:00

The great Pai Cheung Lang. Tengok belang tarung ni pun dah boleh bagi aku senyum tiga empat hari. Dia hidup balik lepas banyak ribu tahun mati. Tu yang tak boleh tahan. Siap ade gang dulu-dulu lagi, termasuk Orga. Perkh. Terima kasih kepada alter ego Wunan.

<-- Ji Tenwu (Pai Wunan versi baik). I always hate the idea of Wunan going berserk and psycho, but i also don't like the idea of a hypocritical Wunan versi baik.

Yang penting aku happy.

But it's only a fantasy....

2009-02-18T16:00:00.002+08:00

They provide heaven.

Yaoi warning.

I have raped most of the virgins there.

With my naked eyes.

Hehe.

Kombinasi penghapus dewa

2009-02-18T15:45:00.002+08:00

Kau tak rasa seram ke baca tajuk aku kali ni?

Aku beruntung dapat student semua kepala bagus. Aku baru tahu abang kepada Fauzi adalah peminat fanatik pendekar laut/wira tunggal. Aku dengan muka tak malu pinjam latest edition yang dah lama aku tinggalkan. Dulu collection aku Undertaker bakar. Jadi terpaksalah aku berusaha dengan lebih keras untuk mendapatkan semula barang2 tersebut.

Memang tak dapat dinafikan komik yang berjaya menambat hati aku adalah komik hong kong terutamanya hasil karya Wan Yat Leung. Komik pertama yang betul2 bagi aku rasa high adalah Raja Rimba yang mempunyai Tenno Gelap sebagai pelaris.. Kakkuii. Pendekar Laut dan Wira Tunggal bagi aku adalah yang paling berharga. Aku paling meminati Harimau Kumbang, keluarga diraja Pai terutama pengasas Pai CL atau Pendekar Laut sendiri, Orga yang sangat perkasa, Dewa Parang yang mempunyai sejarah yang cukup pilu, Zonan dan segala-galanya.

Malam semalam Fauzi telah mengotakan janjinya untuk membawakan aku komik2 tersebut. Setelah menatap edisi terbaru, air mata aku jatuh tanpa aku sedari. Kelas Chemistry aku terus tergendala. Emosi aku mencanak naik apabila melihat kembali semua hero2 yang aku agungkan semenjak lebih 15 tahun dulu.

Perasaannya? Macam jumpa kekasih lama.
Perasaannya? Lebih pilu dari jumpa balik M.

Feeling tu.

Don't be too damn noisy when other people are grieving, bastards!

2009-02-18T15:27:00.003+08:00

memang tak silap aku pilih background 'hey you - pink floyd' sebagai peneman aku satu malam. instrumental part dia memang berantu.

hari ni student aku cancel class, errrm.. kurang sihat katanya.. hahah.. iyelah tu. tapi aku cool dengan benda2 penipuan macam ni. boleh lah aku baca 12 Gig Yaoi collection aku. aku tak tido dari malam tadi. perkhhh heaven!

arigato dpscanlation team / aarinfantasy team.

SUFI VS MIRA

2009-01-28T10:29:00.002+08:00

I fudgin hate it when people starts asking me what i'm going to do.

I don't know what i'm going to do. The best bet is just trying to go with the flow and stays who I am.

F'course I have plans. I always have plans. Even to the tiniest detail of how i should spend my next 50cent.

But that doesn't mean the plan are going to unfold themselves, exactly the way i wanted. I don't fucking know what's going to happen in the future.

And i don't care. I don't want to waste my time worrying about uncertainty like that.

So, Mira, I hope you can understand me when i said i wanted to finish my anime first than worrying about my unfinished work.

BRAGGING SUFI VS THE BIG FAT FUCKIN CUNT

2009-01-28T09:02:00.007+08:00

I rarely spend time with people my age. I just can't get their definition of appropriate talks. Or how sucks their opinion on people are.

Once, I attend this bizarre errr... reunion meeting. I came a bit late, just because i'm busy, and those other m'fuckers have already gathered. One bitch actually asked "Sufi, where's your car?" besides her small and damn unattractive kancil, proudly. What the fuck is that?

I had to park my 'besi buruk' way up the hill, so I walked down all the way to the meeting place.. "I don't have a car, I walked all the way from my home." I somberly lied. That arrogant bitch actually tilt her lips. She's arrogantly suppressing her satisfaction. How I wish I could fuckin smack her that time, and wish she's killed on the spot!

We talked. Not-so-good-for-me old time stories. Yeah, I had my own fun during those school time. To juggle work and study, to comprehend life at its best, and try to understand why i have to make my own money where others just have to ask it from their sissy parents!!

They laugh at whatever lame jokes. Yeahhh, okay.. that someone i forgot her face was actually divorced. So fuck! Why are you fudgin care???

I sat quietly and tried to enjoy my drink. How i wish i can have a puffing smoke and blew it to them m'fuckers!!

"Sufi, whatcha been doin? Boy how i'm relieved to nail that lawyer job..." I heard the silent 'How much is your salary? Mine is a big wallopinig 1800.. hehhe'. Assholes!!!!!!!!!!!

She's not a fuckin lawyer for god's sake!!! She's a fuckin Admin in that lawyer office!! Damn fuckin bitch!

"I'm teaching."

"Owhh... okay." That rat-ass actually tried to sound sympathetic. GODDAMMMIIT! I FUDGIN HATE THAT!!

"I had a big walloping nett of 10K monthly if i'm hardworking enough. Bet you lawyer have it easier." Now, top that you pompous rat! I shine that bitch a spectacular sweet dazzling smile. I hope i sound arrogant enough.

Yo, that bitch laugh. That cunt actually laugh.

"Owh Sufi, you're still the best at throwing offhanded jokes like that.. hahahhaa"

WTF?

"No beb. I'm serious. I have a few teaching contracts, at U or local colleges. I have contract with one international co and i have my own office. It's tiring and i sometimes have to reject offers. But, I have to fuckin care for other people. And i have a huge ass debt. So, I don't think it's still enough. I wonder if i have to change profession. Tell me, is doing law that fun?" I'm trying to plaster my headmistress aura, trying to put sense into the minds of little children.

She stopped laughing. And find excuses to go to the toilet.

And the nice Sufi fuckin started to feel guilt. I never would have thought that i would stoop so low as to be as arrogant like this. This is so fucking weird. Compare to M, my income does sound puny. That bastard can nail millions if he wanted. Wuuwuwuwuwu.........

Arrogant comes from insecurity. I know that.

The outcome of the reunion =
I hate them even more.
And I hope that bitch learn her lesson of not looking down on other people, especially the great ol'Sufi.. the next fuckin time we meet.. which probably in the lunar year of the tapir.

Cool.

peristiwa sadis

2009-01-27T15:42:00.003+08:00

aku baru balik dari bundle permatang pauh dgn mira. kalau nak belikan baju kat adik jebeng aku tu baju kat boutique, aku mana mampu.

setelah makan sekenyang2 mungkin, termasuk pekena cendol pulut yang kurang feeliing, kami balik.

dalam perjalanan balik, atas jambatan, terdengar alunan muzik xpdc yang sungguh merdu. aku start nyanyi. adik aku ikut nyanyi. dalam pengamatan pendengaran aku, aku rasa sungguh pelik. sungguh aku rasa nak terkeluar air mata tahan gelak.

"kenape kak sufi?"

"Mira, cuba kau nyanyi balik.. aku saje nak pastikan sesuatu.." stereng kereta seakan bergegar, urat2 mata aku melingkar-melingkar kemerahan kerana cuba menahan gelak.

dengan muka yang serius dan suara feeling yang tak sedap...
"tak nak jadi sos cair... tak nak jadi sos cair..."

Huhuhuhuhhahahahhaha aduiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.... kalau aku tak ade atas jambatan, dah lama aku swive ke tepi. aku tak confident bawak kereta dalam keadaan itu, melihatkan Mira terpinga-pinga tengok aku tak cukup nafas gelak...

Hhahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!! Kalau Mail tahu, mahu saje dia datang Penang pegi bunuh Mira...

Hahahhhahahahahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-27T11:08:00.002+08:00

a cessna plane crashed near my house, gunung pulai reserved forest.

it got all the people talking.

before this, fatal landslide, and now this crash.

adik aku cakap, to quote her exact words,

"banyak maksiat, budak selalu datang kat situ, bosan aku."

"patutnya kapal terbang tu jatuh kat orang yang buat maksiat, bukan tersangkut atas pokok"

"aku anti dgn orang buat maksiat kat gunung, gara-gara aku jatuh tergolek dari moto bapak dekat gunung tu"

"sakit tau!"

Kau buat ape kat gunung masa tu?

"aku... aku skodeng orang buat maksiat"

Hahhahaha

"Heiii.. aku ni hanya berniat nak skodeng pun kena tempiasnya tau!!"

Hahhhahahha

what seems beautiful to one person might be painful for another

2009-01-26T22:55:00.002+08:00

blasted my car-park-neighbour. think i'm so sweet letting you off the hook this time?

i scratched your nissan

eat that!!!!!!!!!!!

dig this

2009-01-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

painting the tower crimson
the snow white darkness
overthrows its own king

"Due to my amazingly perverted mind, i can fuckin smile reading this.. ahak"

check out arigatomina.com... hihi
they've got some pairing that i adore
schweet...

If you can't have it, create it

2009-01-26T12:50:00.003+08:00

God Bless Fan Fiction, God Bless Fan Art

Truly a savior in my darkest hour

I just can't believe my nakama are all around the world

I just can't believe we have the same insanely fuckin dream

Cool..

2009-01-26T08:45:00.002+08:00

LAST NIGHT WAS JUST SO FREAKING WEIRD!

IS THAT A BLOODY GHOST?????????????

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-26T08:06:00.002+08:00

I can't follow that bastard train of thought

That Wake keep pestering me eventho he's the one who broke the tie. What more do you want?

Leave me alone, dammit!

2009-01-26T07:32:00.002+08:00

setelah lama aku mencari, dapat juga aku merompak cromok - i don't belong here dari playlist.com.

smirk...smirk

kepaciran

2009-01-25T17:02:00.002+08:00

sopia & cinda

pontianak jongos & sopia

"kau ape masalah??" budak kecik itu berbisik dengan sadis dalam hatinya.

pieces of naono

2009-01-25T07:45:00.004+08:00

Three wolves mountain by naono sensei- yaoi (not threesome, but i got a good feeling that werewolf genre, especially with Tarou as the brother, is fantastic! He's a fuckin hero! And where else can you find a viscious one wearing fuckin gay-shirt? Damn!)

Who the fuck is Naono sensei btw? She's a freakin talented mangaka, one of my favourite. And she's a damn hardworking one at that. Keep up the good work! Gambare sensei!

confession # 5

2009-01-25T01:04:00.001+08:00

naono bohra sensei.... you're a genius!

ahakk...

stairway to hell

2009-01-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

aku suka dengar muzikfm rock selamba dengan rock suci. dj rizuan punye suara mengancam betul. masa tu dia tengah interview nash, dari lefthanded. (alfatihah untuk samad). lagu2 nash dengan lefthanded memang berhantu. perkkh terutama tiada lagi kidungmu. meleleh beb!

aku tukar sinarfm, dengar pulak search - fenomena. aduii macam nak nangis!!! aku rasa aku dah tua sangat2. dengar lagu dulu2 rasa pilu. PILU tuuuuu... macam tak caya aku boleh mengaku perkara bodoh macam ni!

mira jebeng

2009-01-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

lepas aku balik dari melaka itu hari, aku angkut sekali mira jebeng, merangkap adik aku, iaitu anak kesembilan 'undertaker'.

ceritenya, kononnya dia nak keje kat penang sementara tunggu spm result keluar. tapi dah dekat seminggu dia goyang kaki, makan minum berak cangkung semua aku tanggung. dia nak ambik lesen kereta moto, kelas komputer dengan nak pi kursus kawin. senang kira, aku kena jadi hero balik semula.

tapi ok jugaklah ade si jebeng tu, kurang2 aku tak sunyi. dia punya pengkepoh, penyebok, penggossip, semua taraf antarabangsa. first class. cerita tak kelaka pun boleh bagi aku bergolek atas lantai.

lagipun dia ade satu hobi sama dengan aku, iaitu mengamalkan kuasa menghilangkan duit dari dompet dan menggantikannya dengan nilai yang sama masuk dalam perut. dia punye selera, masyaAllah, bukan setakat taraf antarabangsa, yang tak tahu jenis bangsa ape punye makanan pun dia sapu.

agak2 dia takde rezeki dapat keje lain, maka bolehlah jadi hamba aku kat sini... ehhehe

confession # 4 : This is sexiness

2009-01-24T19:25:00.003+08:00

blood & scream
nice!

you might like these, who knows...

2009-01-24T18:59:00.005+08:00

Sufi's Confession Series (SCS)

It's a series where sufi dwells on weird things, for all the wrong and foolish reason. It translates the black sufi's heart into modest words. F'course.... please keep it to yourself.

I know it's disgusting. Downright dirty. But i can't help it.

And I know, some of my students are actually got a hold of this blog, i didn't mean to creep anybody, but i have to get these insanity out of my goddamn head.

I only hope this is just a temporary wrong-kind-of-pheromone-case.

desperate confession # 3

2009-01-24T18:45:00.004+08:00

Boy C

Please help me god...

I'm actually infatuated with over-underaged boys.
What's gotten into me? I usually go for Alucardo from Hellsing, old Brandon from Gungrave. Look at me now, i even become a faithful follower of BL ... shit!

Just the other day, I saw Naruto look alike in the lift. It took all my courage not to grab that young lad. I asked that cutey his age.

He's a fucking 11 sweet years old.. Goddammnitt!!!

But i swear to God i didn't kidnap Hasmawi. The other pervert did it.

disgusting confession # 2

2009-01-24T13:59:00.009+08:00

Boy B

i have students confessed to me, in a way that would digusts others

he looks so demure, pure, innocent.. sweet 17 to be.

i dissed him off, saying, 'beb, kau ni kurang kasih sayang sangat ke? hormone tak balance? ke kau gile?'

i'm 12 years older for god's sake!

he said he doesn't care.

what the fuck!

don't tempt me, bloody devil!

confession # 1

2009-01-23T19:34:00.004+08:00

Boy A

damn my wicked thought
everytime he came to my class
i was thinking of asking
'may i have your lips?'
but how the hell can i do that
when he's only a fucking 12 year old boy!!!

go to hell with my shota complex

that damn boy looks like that bloody M

y'all can hate sufi now

My birthday

2009-01-20T07:32:00.005+08:00

today is my 29th birthday

hadiah paling berharga aku ialah aku rasa beruntung hidup lagi sampai hari ni.
aku rasa cukup bertuah dijumpakan dengan semua orang yg aku jumpa sampai hari ni.
pengalaman aku taklah begitu banyak tapi rasanya dapatlah aku guna untuk mengkayakan diri aku lagi sebelum aku cecah 30. Aku bersyukur Tuhan masih lagi mau bagi aku rezeki.

hadiah yang nak bagi kat diri aku sendiri ialah sebijik rumah dengan sea view, stopkan hutang kereta dan beli sebijik kereta cash. kalau boleh aku nak tukar waja aku ke V6 (plan asal aku nak ambik toyota, tapi tak mampu). aku ade lebih dari 200 title anime, dan melebihi 4000 episode anime yang seharusnya aku rembat dalam tahun ni.

aku dah settle kebanyakan hutang aku termasuk 2 card credit utama aku. kalau ikut plan aku tahun ni, aku akan habiskan unncecassary liabiliti aku sebelum oktober, termasuk semua hutang dengan manusia yang tak sepatutnya aku bayar. pada tarikh yang sama tahun depan aku tak mahu ade hutang lagi dengan mana2 bank ataupun manusia kecuali hutang rumah aku. aku nak bersara umur 40.

aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk menjadi selfish tahap dewa.

mari buat bodo ramai-ramai! selamat tinggal hati baik. yayyy!

introducing clare no 47 of claymore.

adik aku

2009-01-15T22:35:00.003+08:00

Malam ni aku pi Melaka, jenguk adik aku yang nak bertunang.
Seperti biasa, banyak pulak yang tak cukupnya. Kenalah aku jadi hero lagi.

Adik aku punye criminal record banyak. Masuk lockup berapa kali dah. Masuk penjara sekali, balik rumah pakai baju perompak mati kena tikam.

alhamdulillah nasib baik dia jadi orang jugak akhirnya. Kali terakhir aku dengar dia buat keje tak betul ialah masa dia cakap dia ada projek mengedar ganja entah berapa kilo dengan curi besi dekat abandoned construction site.

lantak dia lah.

Lepas dia kawan dengan bakal tunang dia nampak dia banyak berubah. nasib baik. takdelah aku kena keluarkan saving lagi nak jamin dia keluar penjara. hehe. sekarang dia keje tetap kat satu resort. duduk dekat pulau, kawan dengan bapak hantu. lagi bagus dari dia kawan balik dengan anak2 antu.

bye penang.

2009-01-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

Was it someting that i did?

2009-01-14T00:34:00.003+08:00

I should not feel so happy like this, but i did!
Hihiii....hihihi...

What can i say? I'm stupid.

2009-01-14T00:11:00.002+08:00

dah lama aku tak update blog sebenarnya. cerita sebenarnya adalah streamyx aku kena potong sebab aku tak bayar. tengah susah, nak buat macam mana. nasib baik tuhan tolong aku lagi, selain dari dia betulkan hati dan kepala otak aku ini, Dia bagi aku lagi rezeki sampai tak tertanggung aku nak terima.

aku memang takde mood selama dua tiga bulan ni. Aku tak pegi kelas sampai sebulan. Bodoh betul aku! kalau tak pegi kelas, macam mana aku nak bayar bil?

penyebab utama ialah aku confuse kenape orang yang paling aku percaya selama ni tipu aku bulat2, empat segi, hexagon semua masuk. Semua penjuru dia balas. Orang itu bernama Wake. Kalau dah tak mahu, cakap aje terus terang. aku tak kisah, at least aku boleh pegi awal2, takde lagi aku bazir masa. Alasan yang dia bagi punye banyak bagi aku pening kepala. Macam aku punye cacat cela menggunung tinggi. Aku tanya, dia nak aku jadi sempurna macam mana lagi? Buruk baik dia dah lama aku terima. kenape dia tak boleh buat benda yang sama?

dia tak jawab. aku tahu, dah ada barang baru, takkan nak simpan lagi barang lama. buat menyemak, tak cukup space. kalau dalam term komputer, tak payah nak masuk recycle bin, elok format terus.

bohonglah kalau aku kata aku tak merana. Aku kan sentimental rock. yang menjadi masalah, aku selalu sangka baik kat dia, so aku ingat yang baik2 sahaja pada dia. dia pun dah menabur budi bertahun lama kat aku. kalau mau ingat dia punya ketakbagusan dan penipuannya, mau aku bakar sahaja rumahnya. pada masa itu, pisau dapur aku rasa macam lawaaaaaaa sangat. kalau aku tikam dia rasa puas hati sungguh. nasib baik dalam masa 6 tahun aku kawan dengan dia, aku dah tampar dia 2 kali, mungkin lebih. itu pun dikira aku masih baik lagi.

sekarang aku dah ok. kelas aku pun dah ok. streamyx pun aku dah terbayar. credit card aku pun dah terurus. azam tahun baru aku ialah aku akan langsaikan semua unnecessary hutang yang aku ada dalam tahun 2009. aku rasa boleh dicapai. lepas aku cecah umur 29, aku nak hidup sederhana, dan buat bodo sepanjang masa.

leceh kalau buat pandai, orang expect for excellent thing. shit kan?